WORTH THE RESISTANCE! – #RoadTo150

I knew it would be difficult but I didn’t realize it would be one of the best decisions I’d ever make.

 

A couple of weeks back, I decided to deactivate my social media accounts as my way of calibrating my lifestyle towards becoming more, for lack of a better word, private. My life is riddled with so much pressure already coming from different areas of my environment and social media didn’t help that. If any, it even made things worse for me. I realize I was putting myself into the circumstance of feeling like I owe everything to the world. I was taking pictures to get people to like it, posting status for people to react to and I was molding my life into the kind that people would wanna be in. I was changing a lot about myself and the worst part is, I didn’t even notice this. I was so engrossed with being part of the community that probably didn’t even realize my existence which to be honest, the thought of that would scare me before but now, it actually feels liberating.

 

I do have some episodes of drifting back a little by checking some posts here and there but the good thing is, I’ve definitely shrunk down my circle — keeping important souls and leaving unnecessary baggages.

 

I haven’t had much progress in losing weight if I were to be honest but right now, there really isn’t much unwanted pressure anymore and it’s truly helpful! I’m driving by my own pace, focusing on my goals and enjoying every part of this journey. In two months, I’m targeting to lose at least 16 lbs. and then continue on a steady pace after that. It’s a mountain to climb but I’m more stable now. Taking in the pressure but rejecting unnecessary ones.

 

This whole social media detox is difficult but definitely worth every bit of resistance I had to go through.

WHAT A CRY BABY! #RoadTo150

Last Friday, I weighed then cried and not for very good reasons…

I was debating whether I should workout before or after work because I had a meeting and there were still some things that we needed to take care of (procrastinating accounts team realness). I managed to drag myself out of my bed to get things done beforehitting the gym.

It was a rather short session because I arrived SUPER late and I was running out of time but I at least made sure that I finished my usual and put on a little of my core workout (VERY little actually). And then, it was time to step on the scale. I nervously took of my shoes and stood over the scale, it had to be done. It read 213.0 lbs flat, 1.7lbs less than my previous weight but for some reason, I was still very disappointed. Am I not following my diet properly? Do I need to put in extra work? What else should I do? Can I still push myself harder? I had questions that were so overwhelming that all I could really do is take a moment of silence and really, seriously assess my effort.

I am making progress. Slow, but still progress. As I would like to justify, this is better than nothing. But more than just losing weight, this whole process is about trying to push myself to the limits. This is about finding ways to rehabilitate my spirits and really understand the peak of my body (and mind). So, as overwhelming as these questions area, there is still one thing to do and that it is to get back much stronger tomorrow and then continue working hard for all of the hopes and goals I’ve set.

Still fighting!

 

michael